Friday, December 24, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
so, here is what the hibernation cave looks like right now! (here is one photo - click this link to go to my photostream: scrumpygirl13 )
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
i wanted to do my thanksgiving day post on thanksgiving while i'm curled up on the couch enjoying my first real day off since october, drinking coffee, eating a cinnamon roll, watching the parade and scheming the pie baking for the afternoon. but...alas, the internet is still not working at the apartment so i'm posting early!
this has been a year of up's and down's, sometimes more down's than up's but it's ok. i am thankful that i have made some changes that really have helped me realize who i am. it's been difficult but i feel like i've really been able to grow up a lot in the last year.
mostly, i am thankful for the people in my life. they have supported me, carried me, listened to me, made me laugh when i wanted to cry, let me cry if i needed to and made me feel like i'm not alone when things are rough or great. i really miss my family. it's tougher than i thought it would be to move and to leave my parents in memphis. but at the same time i think it's given me some perspective on what my own dreams and my own goals are. i miss my friends in memphis but am thankful for their love and support that i feel through the internet! god bless facebook and twitter, right!?
i am thankful for the blanket of snow that has covered the twin cities! this is the third snow that i've experienced up here so far which makes me so happy! i have long missed the changing of the seasons and the bite of a cold fall/winter. of course, this means that tomorrow is going to be -10...it's like the weather is making sure i know what i'm getting into! my sweet mom and dad are sending me some much-needed snow boots! i can't wait until they get here, then i won't have to worry so much about falling on my butt on the way to the bus stop!
i am thankful for a new life. new surroundings in a city i love. the love of people in my life and the weather. mostly, i am thankful for all of it. i'd write more but then i might make myself cry! so, instead of me making me cry...here is something my sweet nana wrote when i asked her to talk about thankfulness:
"Thanksgiving brings many memories of all those turkey dinners, trips to the grandparents and later trips to our children to celebrate the occasion. My reflections dwell more on what I am thankful for -- for the 54 years of marriage to my dear sweet husband with only regrets that we couldn't grown older together -- for the six wonderful children that this marriage produced and the six in-law children that they brought into this family -- followed by nine grandchildren and three spouses and one dear little great-granddaughter. They now number 25 - each one so dear to my heart. I am so truly blessed and deeply grateful for all that God has given me."
how's that for thankfulness? :D i love my nana! here's a great pic of my mom and her mom (my nana)
hope everyone has a fabulous thanksgiving!
Friday, November 19, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
so, that said - sorry for the lack of posting! it's so annoying. i have a guest post by my dear friend laura of consider lillies (http://lauracatemann.blogspot.com/) all ready to go but i can't get the internet to work so i can't upload it! boo! i swear, it will get done this week!
i'm also still planning on opening up the etsy shop either this week or next week, depending on if i can take some time to go to a caribou coffee or something to hook up online. so annoying!
but in good news - got christmas music playing, experienced my first minnesotan snow! (it was a record breaker apparently!) so the ground is white, the music is going, i'm bundled up with a new hat and i looooooove this time of year! what's your favorite thing about the holidays?
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
As a child I was lucky enough to meet an amazing group of girls that together as we grew up instead of growing apart we turned into dear friends. When Erin asked me to stop by for a visit at her home in cyberspace I was truly honored that she thought of me. Erin is one of those girls turned dear friend and I truly cannot remember life without her.
On daily basis you can find me over at The Reel Family Blog where our life revolves my attempts to battle a messy toddler and husband with my OCD cleaning habits and all that lies in between. We talk party planning, cooking and parenting as I entertain you with stories of my “all-boy” child and our attempts to navigate this great river called parenthood.
For me, parenthood was an “AHA” moment in truly understanding the depths of thankfulness. Sure, I have always been thankful of my many blessings. But, there is something about motherhood that for me was soul changing.
Waking up to each morning to pitter-patter of feet and a soft call for “Momma” overcomes me. I am overtaken with love and gratitude that I was chosen to be his Momma. It makes me thankful for each and every day I have been given. My heart now walks outside my body and love so much deeper.
My husband is the light of my life; he is my person. I have always loved him but now my love grows daily. Each day I swear I couldn’t love him more until I see him interact with our son or go about our daily partnership in this life we have made. To an outsider our daily world may seem mundane but together we tackle life. And, to me, there is nothing like it. There truly is nothing better than us.
And as crazy as it sounds it even makes me more thankful for my past. Hindsight is always 20/20 and I can look at my life and see how each path lead me to road I am on today. I found my person; he’s my perfect match, my soul mate. I found the job I was made for. I spent a lot of life chasing dreams of professionalism. Along the way I realized, work to me is nothing more than a means to pay the bills. I was made to be Craig’s wife and EJ’s momma. And when the world seems dark and life is heavy I try to focus on the reality that this is best times of my life thus far. I am thankful for each day, for each quiet morning in PJ’s with a cup of coffee and Sesame Street playing the background. I am thankful for the blessing my husband has given me by shouldering the weight of finances and working hard for us everyday. I am thankful for family, the one that made me and the one that I have made.
So as we embark on yet another Holiday season I find myself not thankful for things that I have in my life but the people. My friends, the old and the new, who without them my life would be so incomplete. My family who loves always and supports unconditionally. My husband, my best friend who makes me laugh and smile and loves me through raging hormones, childbirth, and both good and bad times. My son who taught me what love really is and reminded me who and what are really most important in life.
Monday, November 1, 2010
well, i have some exciting stuff coming up this month on this blog!!
it's all about thankfulness.
i am very excited that some of my best friends are going to write a couple of guest blog posts for you lovely readers to soak up! some are going to be about crafts, others about traditions and some about thankfulness and what that means to them. i even hope to have a very special blog post from my most favorite woman (or maybe even two of them) ever!
i will also be doing another give-away this month so keep posted to win some fabulous goodies!
there may also be an exciting announcement coming up later this month that i can hardly wait to share with you guys but i really need to just be patient for a bit! so that's my november teaser! it's going to be a great month!!
and thanks to all who voted on my poll - looks like this dorkus is going to keep the blog more-or-less the same as it's been. much love to all!!
halloween was pretty uneventful for me this year - seems like that's been the trend for the past three years, sadly. three years ago i had a horrible bronchial infection which caused me to cancel my annual party, last year, well, that was the whole beginning of the divorce thing and i didn't really think a celebration was in order. this year, well, working seven days a week definitely lends itself to a bit of unpreparedness (that's so a word!) and having a tiny apartment kind of aids in the whole inability to throw a party! i guess i'll just look at these last three years of no-party-ness as preparation for a gigantic party next halloween! i literally cannot wait!
we went bowling on saturday night, i dressed as a modern day demeter (goddess of fertility) and my boyfriend was a modern day baccus (god of food and wine). it was pretty fun, i even almost broke 100 on my second game which cracks me up - but i still beat the boy so that's what matters! last night i got to tag along with my best friend, jill and meet a new friend, megan, who was amazing! we hung out at her house in the front yard, roasted marshmellows and handed out candy to little trick-or-treaters! it was fabulous! then we followed it up with a bonfire at jill's house with friends and family in attendance. i even got to see my friend, naja, who moved up here from memphis some years back.
well, it was amazing and i hope you had a great halloween! we are going bowling again tonight because we obviously like torture! have a wonderful first day of november and look for another update this afternoon about the month of november and this blog!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
alrighty, thanks you guys for posting about your favorite halloween memories! we do have a winner this morning! but i decided we needed two winners! so i asked my bf to pick a number between one and four and he picked two, then i asked him to pick another winner and he picked four, so here we go!
growing up in northern Minnesota made the choosing of a costume a challenge....did one buy the beautiful costume in the store and then cover it with a winter coat, stocking cap, and mittens, (some years there was snow on the ground by end of October)? Or did one want to show off the costume and turn blue in the sub zero weather? Usually Mom prevailed and I rarely got to show off my costume while trick or treating because of all the layers of warmth I was wearing. My favorite part of halloween was bringing home the candy and hiding it from my dad. Dad always creeped into our bedrooms the next morning and stole our candy and we would jump out of bed and chase him around the house trying to get it back. We never hid the candy too well for fear he might NOT find it...."
looney4one is our first winner! e-mail me and let me know which three little "spookies" you'd like.
aaaannnnd!!! laura is our second winner!
eating candy? does that count:)? glad you had a day off to make stuff, friend. how fun!"
thanks sweetie!!! i was so glad to have a day off, too! :D e-mail me and let me know which three you'd like!
thanks to everyone for playing along! we'll do another give-away soon :D stay tuned!!
Friday, October 22, 2010
i woke up early this morning around 4am and realized that i could barely breathe and my throat felt like it was on fire. not so great considering i had a mere 2.5 hours before i needed to get up for work. blah. i fell back asleep for a little bit but when that alarm went off i knew there was no way i was going to work today.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
it's been painful. but i knew it would be. but, i've grown more in this last year than i have in the past ten, so it's been amazing. i've found myself completely broke and broken, sobbing myself to sleep many, many nights but i've learned that i'm so much stronger than i thought i could ever be. granted, i didn't want to find this out about myself but whaddya gonna do???
i've found that from this distance from my family and friends who i've always relied on, i miss them more, i value them more and i know which ones are the true friends. that part kinda sucked, losing people you thought were there for good. but i've also learned to think for myself more. i know that the people i love always have my "best interests" in mind when they give me opinions or advice but i've learned that only i can decide what my "best interests" really are. so, i feel like now, staring down the gun to 30 years old, i've learned to discern between what i "want" and what i "need" and what my decisions are. it's pretty great. although, i do miss my friends and family, sometimes i feel very lonely up here but it's getting better!
i've worked for three different places since moving here in march - interned at one and am still searching. currently i'm working for two of the three places and while the money is nice, the hours are starting to wear me out. if i could just get one day off a week that would be amazing! i feel like a chicken running around without the benefit of ever having a head!
my dog lives up here now, sadly not with me yet. my apartment won't let me have a dog that is over 40 lbs and i just don't think that i should put my 60 lb dog on a diet and shave all of his fur off...although the fur would be about 5lbs i think! but i have a cat - a crotchety cat, who belongs to this boyfriend guy that i have :D but, the mutt lives with friends until my lease is up next may.
the boyfriend guy :D :D :D is awesome. i am so blessed and lucky to have found someone who really gets me. it's one of the healthiest relationships i've ever had, makes me feel so grown up...except when pillow fights ensue.
music and art are still my loves but i just barely have time to do laundry these days and keep my 520 sq ft apartment clean so my loves get a little backburner action sometimes. i still sketch, play my guitar some and write down random lyrics that pop in but i haven't played out anywhere or done serious writing since i got here. all in due time, i guess.
so, that's a semi-short run-down of life after the giant changes. i wish my ex the best of luck and hope that he's ok. life just sucks sometimes but if you aren't true to yourself you're really short-changing everyone around you. alright, time for job number 2! live life the best way you can!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
to make this blog more interesting? it needs a focus, yes - but i am horrible at focusing. so, here is your chance (you four people who actually read my stupid posts!) to make me change. do you have any suggestions? here are a few things i'm interested in that might be good:
4. home decorating
5. city happenings (although i know most of you who read this don't live in MPLS)
7. random musings (more or less you like it how it is)
so, those are just a few ideas - does anyone have an opinion? i'd really, really, really like some of those opinions! c'mon! i'm going to add a poll to the right-hand side of this blog, please take the poll and leave me comments. I'M BEGGING YOU! :D
don't know! but lately life has switched into warp speed. i got a second job recently and now i'm working about 46 - 50 hours a week. not something that i really wanted to do but the bills demand it! i like both of my jobs, one more than the other but we won't go there. but i keep finding myself back on the lookout for work. i'm employed but that can always change, kinda scary. what's even scarier (or more frustrating) is this:
i have no earthly idea what i want to do right now.
none. none whatsoever.
i know that i want to open a shop in a few years and that i need to sock away money right now and that's what i'm trying to do. but it's just kind of frustrating to be working so much and have very little time off (read - not a full day anywhere). it's also frustrating to have this fabulous framed piece of paper that says i have a degree in something that i don't really want to do. not like i could get a job in that field right now anyways. but i guess i'll just have to be content to be discontent...still.
oh well - at least i'm employed, i love this city, i'm happier than i've been in a while and i'm in love with life. we'll see what the future holds. yup.
Monday, August 9, 2010
1 c. brown sugar
1 tsp. vanilla extract
2/3 c. applesauce
2 1/4 c. baking mix (Bisquick, etc.)
1/4 c. flour
2 tsp. allspice
1 tsp. cinnamon
preheat oven to 375 F. cream butter, sugar & vanilla, then add egg. stir in applesauce and combined dry ingredients. fill muffin tin cups 3/4th of the way and bake 10-15 minutes or until brown and puffy. serve with butter and jam. (strawberry goes really well with these!)
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
what am i restless for?
i know there are a few things but i'll just have to wait it out...and i hate that. oh well.
Friday, July 23, 2010
what have i done this week? pretty much dropped breads and carbs from the menu. i've allowed myself a few here and there because i don't want to go through complete withdrawals during my trip to michigan for my cousin's wedding (leaving soon!). but even so, i've pretty much cut most of them out of my diet. the things i splurged on this week were a couple fig newtons, a tiki drink, some pizza and a bowl of cereal. not too bad. of course there are carbs in lots of things so right now, until i get the protein power book from my dad, i'm just trying to cut most of them out. allowing myself like 40g a day (i think like 33 is where i'll end up starting).
i feel better, which is nice. i can tell that the weight went away from my gut, which is super nice. can 't wait to wear skinny jeans in the fall! alright, that's my update!!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
so...off to the grocery store and then back home to pump up the tires on my bike to take it for a spin! woooohooo!!! oh boy!!! :D
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
of trying not to offend people. i know i'm a people-pleaser but this is getting ridiculous! when does it come down to what i want? i guess i'm thinking that people will either get over it or they won't. maybe that's selfish but i do have to worry about myself here. it is exhausting to worry about what other people will think of what i want, of how they'll react. ya know what? that is THEIR reaction...not mine. so why do i let it bug me?
ok - so - i'm moving. i'm heading out soon. like less than a month, soon. and i'm excited at the possibilities that await me - those possibilities are endless! no one is relying on me here, i'm young, i can still come visit (and you can come visit) but it's just time. if you're my friend or my family, shouldn't you be excited that i'm excited?
Friday, February 5, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
the thought that's getting me today is that when a couple breaks up or divorces or whatever - someone is going to get the blame. usually it's the person who leaves. that's just the way it goes. i'm not asking for sympathy here, please hear that, i'm just wondering if people don't ever think about the circumstances leading up to the person leaving? do people ever think about how difficult the decision is to actually leave? the process that goes into that decision is painful - incredibly painful. for me, it wasn't a selfish process - it was a process of trying to figure out how this would affect so many people around me. it was almost debilitating, it was most definitely gut-wrenching and it was not in any way easy. it did teach me that i need to look out for myself. that i need to make sure that i get what i need and want in relationships, friendship or romantic. and i need security, i need safety - i need to know that if i'm truly my little freaky, weirdo self, that other person won't go running, that they'll be able to handle it. because if we can't be ourselves in our relationships - who the hell would want to be our friend?
i wouldn't want to be my friend if i wasn't genuine. i know i can be neurotic, flaky, tactless and (i'm learning recently) insecure but i also know that i'm very loving, incredibly forgiving, funny, warm and inviting. so, why should i chop off some of those things just because i'm afraid some people can't handle it? maybe i will say something that someone doesn't agree with, i know i'll do something that someone doesn't agree with - but i've come to terms with the fact that people do that kind of stuff all the time and i don't hate them for it. and really, i have absolutely no control over how people will perceive me or my actions which is oddly freeing.
so, i guess my rambling point is that it's been an incredibly tough few months - i've lost my job, i've lost what i had worked for, i lost what i knew and what i thought i wanted...but i'll be fine. i know he'll be fine eventually. and that's my opinion. feel free to disagree, feel free to ask questions - but know also that i don't have to answer them.